You know…
… i frequently find my self wondering, what exactly I’m looking for in people. When I compare my ex’s all togeather there is no coherent picture of what they all look like or what they all act like or even ways that they were similar. They all are about as vastly different as people could potentially be. Each had their own unique traits that made them attactive to me, but in the end, none of them worked out for various reasons. Do other people have this problem? Do we even really understand how to look for what we need to find in a relationship? Am I only thinking these thoughts because I’m up at 4am? *yawn*
Secondary thought is this– This is going to be the first christmas/new years I’ve spent without a significant other since I was… oh… 16? Almost 10 years? I suspect this may be seriously depressing and very lonely. :o( Bed time before I think to awful much more.