… to find my mother a man, I’ve signed her up on all the personals sites (or perhaps its just to share in the misery of looking for someone heheh). Took her picture and posting it up now, so I suppose this is a good opportunity to update my pics… I was out today so I don’t look to awful freaky :o) My home site has some pics of me up.
… i frequently find my self wondering, what exactly I’m looking for in people. When I compare my ex’s all togeather there is no coherent picture of what they all look like or what they all act like or even ways that they were similar. They all are about as vastly different as people could potentially be. Each had their own unique traits that made them attactive to me, but in the end, none of them worked out for various reasons. Do other people have this problem? Do we even really understand how to look for what we need to find in a relationship? Am I only thinking these thoughts because I’m up at 4am? *yawn*
Secondary thought is this– This is going to be the first christmas/new years I’ve spent without a significant other since I was… oh… 16? Almost 10 years? I suspect this may be seriously depressing and very lonely. :o( Bed time before I think to awful much more.
… and I watched ‘10 things I hate about you’ again today… I highly recommend it. Anyways, the poem from that movie rocks, its angsty and what-not but hey that’s the kind of poetry i used to write.
I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair;
I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right, I hate it when you lie,
I hate it when you make me laugh; Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you’re not around, and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you;
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.