So…
… it’s definetly time to figure out what I’m going to do with my life, I’ve been idling for a few months loosing weight and getting in shape, and while I’m not yet where I want to be (getting damn close though and well over the hump!) yet I need to decide what my priorities are going to be.
I think first and foremost I need to finish my degree and get back to school to work on my bachelors… in what I’m just not sure yet, but I’m finishing up that accounting class this summer end of story and getting my degree. Can’t hurt for the job market and then I can decide what I want to do in the long run school wise… psych? Teaching? Military? Shrug, no idea. Gotta do something and soon though. I’ve let my life get below the point I like to keep it at, I’ve been slacking for a long long time. Enough of that.
Next– What exactly do I want in a woman? I think alot of my problems my whole life with women is I settle for less than I need. I really am not a big looks person, but I want someone who obviously has some respect for how they look and hasn’t let their body fall apart (M). I can’t be with a hypochondriac, drive me crazy (ala AE.) Can’t be with someone who isn’t honest (ala ady/mand.) Kids rule someone out (Most all the remainder of my x’s :P.) That pretty much defines what I don’t want. What *do* I want though? A strong woman who isn’t afraid to tell me when something bothers her. Someone honest… brutally honest, I’d rather have a ruthless truth than the smallest lie. Intelligent– I have to be able to have a good conversation with them. Interested in the same things as I am, crafts, pool, spending time togeather, exercise (I dont like it, but it’s going to have to be a lifelong commitment and that kind of commitment is much easier when you do it with someone else at the same time), sexually aggressive and diverse (willing to experiment and willing to let me know when *they* want to have sex in addition to when I want to have sex… and able to let me know what im doing right and wrong for them), willing to hash out problems when they occur and deal with them THEN not repeatedly deal with them over and over and over that gets flusterating, emotionally mature, non-drinker/extremely light drinker, no kids (duh), have some ambitions (either have went to school or working on it and willing to go after things they want in life), no fear of change, someone who prefers doing stuff togeather more than apart, someone with an open mind and willing to try new things. Someone who isn’t afraid of commitment… and has been in a relationship that has lasted longer than a year.
What else do I want, a new job. I’m tired of the stress at this job, need to pick up a full on admin job, I don’t like dealing with customers at all and while most of my job is adminish stuff theres enough tech thrown into drive me slightly insane! I want to take sometime with my grandfather and learn to play the guitar better before he passes along, I think it would mean alot to him and it would mean alot to me. Play better pool and pick up new hobbies. Make some new friends… not that my old ones aren’t good, it’s just that I don’t have nearly enough friends period, I didn’t socialize enough to make new friends… duh. Gotta do things with someone besides your s.o. to make friends outside work hehe. I wanna get good enough at pool to beat my uncle one in three games. I want to learn how to tango! heh, once i loose a bit more weight ;o)… I want to get more dress conscious, I look damn fly in tailored clothing, little tighter at the waist than the top, I have a killer natural build now that I’m loosing enough weight to find it :P I think I may hire a personal shopper once my bills are paid off and redo my entire wardrobe. I’ve been trashing stuff as I went along so I can’t gain weight and just change what I’m wearing. Get out of debt of course, I have about 6k left of my school loan, 8k in creditcard, 10k in car… I think I can dust school and cc this year if I really bust ass.
I think that about covers most of my goals for the next year or so.
So, find not the perfect woman, but a good one for *me* (wouldn’t want a perfect woman!), finish my degree, finish getting in shape, pay off my bills, make new friends, get better at the things I enjoy, get a new look that fits me better.
I’d like to see 80% of that done this year and the remainder done by the end of next year. I can do that much I know (well shy finishing a bach, that will be next year and the following year prolly.)