Obruo

… I sometimes wonder if anyone really knows me? I can probally count the people on one hand who have ever known the real me though… thats kinda a depressing thought. My new theme song? Perhaps just a verse. on the bright side of life mom is okie… she has a hyatal hernia she hasn’t heard if shes going to need an operation to fix it yet or not… its a nasty brutal operation, basically fuk’t for a month or so (no work, no physical labor, etc)… anywho…

It starts with you
one thing I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
to explain in due time
All I knoe
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
Its so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on But didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to Watch it go
I kept everything inside and even tho I tried It all fell apart
What it meant to me will evetually be a memory of a time when

[Chorus]
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
And lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

One thing I don’t know why
Doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself How
I tried so hard

In spite of the way you were mocking me
Actin like I was a part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised It got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouln’t even reconize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept evetyhing inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I

[Chorus]

[Repeat 2x]
I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
Theres only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
And lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

Music, Shadus Ramblings

… feel on sunday skating, knee resembles a black baseball. That’s what I get for trying to get really fancy really fast without giving myself time to get used to skating again :P hehe oh well fuck it if it can’t take a joke, I don’t think anything is broken… it looks pretty nasty and feels rough but I can walk and it doesn’t feel like anything is out of place… it might be hairline fractured but it all seems to be sitting right and since I dont have health insurance I can’t afford (well I could, but dont want to) to get it checked lol. 5k if its broke– if my arm when it broke was any indication. So long as I can walk and it doesn’t get worse we’ll go with the theory it’s fine heh.

Still doin good weightloss wise, almost down to 210… struggling for lbs now. Sucks. Shrug. Did 100 situps and 50 pushups rah go me. Starting a new routine at bally’s come monday… going to be M-Th: Bi, Tri, Shoulder, Stomache T: Chest, Back F: Thigh, Calf. Mowing on Wed, Skating on S-Su afternoons… need to find sometime in there to do other things I suppose too but hey… it’s a good work out at least.

Just realized this song is really sad, never really paid a ton of attention to the lyrics… I want to find the person who makes me want to stay forever, the person that pulls me back when I want to run away… shrug. Heh, like I have time right now anyways… but on the other hand maybe I’ll get lucky and meet someone while I’m out skating/working out/whatever.

Time for bed tonight, was up really late last night downloading anime fansubs and watching them. Scrapped Princess is a pretty good series as is DN Angel.

I don’t want to hear about it anymore,
It’s a shame I’ve got to live without you anymore.
There’s a fire in my heart,
A pounding in my brain, it’s driving me crazy.

We don’t need to talk about it anymore.
Yesterday’s just a memory; can we close the door?
I just made one mistake,
I didn’t know what to say when you called me baby.

Don’t say goodnight,
Say you’re gonna stay forever,
Oh, whoa, all the way.

Can you take me high enough
to fly me over yesterday?
Can you take me high enough?
It’s never over and yesterday’s just a memory,
Yesterday’s just a memory.

And I don’t want to live without you anymore.
Can’t you see I’m in misery?
And you know for sure
I would live and die for you
And I’d know just what to do when you call me baby.

Don’t say goodbye
Say you’re gonna stay forever,
Oh, whoa, all the way.

Can you take me high enough
Can you fly me over yesterday?
Can you take me high enough?
It’s never over and yesterday’s just a memory.

I was running
I was running for the door
Realizing now or never
I was running back for more
Oo, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Don’t say goodbye
Say you’re gonna stay forever,
Oh, whoa, all the way, all the way,
Come all the way, yeah.

Can you take me high enough
Can you fly me over yesterday?
Can you take me high enough?
It’s never over, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

Can you take me high enough
Won’t you fly me over yesterday?
Can you take me high enough?
It’s never over, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

Music, Shadus Ramblings

… rap song I had forgotten about, kicks much ass :o)

NOW THAT WE FOUND LOVE
Heavy D & The Boys

Yeah [yeah-eah]

(Now that we found love what are we gonna do)
[What are we gonna do] (with it) [with it]
(Now that we found love what are we gonna do)
[Hey-eay] (with it)

(Now) One two, tell me what you got
Let me slip my quarters inside your slot to hit the jackpot
Rev me up, rev me up
My little buttercup
We can tug sheets snuggle up and get stuck
Believe it or not
Here comes the brother with glow
A strugglin’, bubblin’ overweight lover hurt prone
So what’s it gonna be
Me or the TV
Now let me take time to set your mind and your body free
(Now) So why don’t you just stretch
Stretch for a sec
Play rather pop so I could cop a quick rec
Shake me, shake me
Baby baby bake me
No need to fake here I am
Come on and take me
Wind your body
Baby move your body
I see you slip sliding
Come on now do it hottie
I’m not quite sure as to what is going down
But I’m feeling Hunky Dory
’bout this thing that I found

(Now that we found love what are we gonna do with it)
(Now that we found love what are we gonna do with it)
[Come on Heavy, come on Heavy]

(Now) I like the way you wiggle
You don’t jiggle
Once you jiggle
So hand over your love
Cause it’s heavier
Than it’ll
Move her like a mover
She wanted to groove so I grooved her
Then she wanted to learn so we did school and I schooled her
(Now)[Mary had a little lamb]
But not like this
We can waltz and turn
Rumble tumble and twist Then you think you gonna give in
Phantasies relivin’
So lay down and relax
[Yeah baby, that’s it]
(Now) Lover my lady
Lady love of my baby girl
Spread your wings
So we can fly around the world
Harmony, charm of me
Your fingertips are callin me
When you drop me kisses
You’re so cute you drop the bomb on me
(Now) Stretch it, stretch it
Flex it, flex it
Gimme the permission
Okey, dokey
I’ll bless ya
Blessin’ like Buddha
Buddha as the bless
You can lay down on the Lover
Put your head on my chest [now that we]

(Now that we found love what are we gonna do)
[What are we gonna do] uh, yeah (with it) [with it] uh
(Now that we found love what are we gonna do)
[Come on and tell me] (with it) TR, get em up one time

(Now) Uh, keep it funky
Yeah [keep it smooth] like this
(Now) Uh, here we go

(Now) What can we do
What are we gonna do
Roses are red and violets are blue
Love is good and plenty
If you get plenty good lovin’
Kiss you where you’re hot
To what I got to keep you bubblin
(Now) Do me right
Do me right
My lonesome dove
Tell me one more time
What is this thing called love
I’m not quite sure
As to what is going down
But I’m feelin’ Hunkey Dory
About this thing that I found [yeah]

(Now that we) [now that we] (found love what are we gonna do)
[Girl tell me] tell me
(With it) [what are we gonna do with this]
Teddy Riley in the house
(Now that we found love) c’mon, c’mon (what are we gonna do)
G Wiz, DJ NF [tell me what are we gonna do with this]
(With it) let’s flex
(Now that we found love) c’mon, c’mon (what are we gonna do)
Yeah [tell me somebody got to tell me] (with it) and you don’t stop, keep it on
(Now that we found love) [I need to know] c’mon, c’mon (what are we gonna do)
[Somebody got to tell me, got to tell me] yeah (with it)
[What are we gonna do with this love, oh sweet love] yeah [oh love] c’mon
Oh yeah, uh… shake it shake it
(Now) oh yeah, uh
[C’mon do the right thing baby] shake it, shake it

Uh (Now that we found love what are we gonna do) here we go
(With it) keep it funky for me [somebody need to tell me]
(Now that we found love) put your hands together, c’mon
(What are we gonna do) uh, uh [I don’t know baby] (with it)
[I don’t know babe] bring it back one time

(Now) All up in money
My furnish was decades
You hear what I’m sayin
Brooklyn, Bronx, Queens, Manhattan
[What are we, what are we gonna do]
The whole New York City
I said I love you to death
And you don’t stop
And you don’t quit
You got keep it on to the dip dip
Do it like this
And you don’t stop
And you don’t quit
[What are we, what are we gonna do]
You got keep it on and on and on and on

(Now) Uh yeah yeah aye aye, ha ha
Huh, [c’mon] oh yeah
(Now that we found love what are we gonna do with it)

Music, Shadus Ramblings